In a few hours, I will finally have the surgery to repair my knee and start taking new steps literally to regain my life. As all photographers know, being creative takes stamina and overall physical strength. Scouting locations, hauling gear, and contorting our bodies to capture the best shot is all part of the job. I love every minute of creating images, but the hard truth is that it has forced me to see that I have not taken care of myself. The up-and-down weight I've been carrying for 20+ years has taken its toll on my already compromised joints.
I have spent the better part of this year fighting my body and trying to ignore the pain. I have only recently come to terms with the fact that I have allowed my knee issues to slowly strip away who I am. I have been in pain every day since I first saw my ortho doc in February.
I like to think of myself as a strong, type A, get-it-done kind of woman. I could not come to terms with not being able to do what I love, never mind not being able to walk even short distances without awful pain. I just dealt with the pain while trying to do everything until I couldn’t. Going out on a shoot would lead to days in bed with pain meds and ice. Surgery, countless steroid injections, medication, and icing just could not stop the pain.
So I decided I had to surrender and get my life back. The first step was committing to taking care of myself and scheduling a partial knee replacement surgery. While I don’t like the idea of it, I need to be able to engage in life again.
As the year winds down, I will be busy with physical therapy and committing myself to being healthier and stronger so that I can get back to being on location and capturing beautiful images. I have a stack of books and Kelbyone videos to keep me busy during my recovery. If you have any good book recommendations, please share!
In the mean time, live, shoot, and capture what makes you happy!